Ex Libellus Perfidia



El Preso

An ember dying, deathless.
A prison with no key
and no cage
save one;
rib and sinew
blood and bone
beating forever
never
always alone.

Choose-Again Paris

dancer's feet
heavy heart buoyant
  on a sea of sorrow

whisper your
immaculate metaphor
sing for me,
once more
the music has stopped       
our game ended long ago       
now i sit alone       
A Haunting Melody

the clouds above my home
  were thick and heavy
with the tears of a summer past
  a dancing flame took it
   all away, now
the south wind stole
  even the ashes and I'm
left with fading memories
  of you. life and love gone with
  the morning dew;
A barren hill, the blackened
  bones of a past left
forever behind,
  I turn my back and
follow the scent of the
  sea and follow the
sun as it falls again.
   Does it fall for you?
my arms are open
but the fog is still so thick;
do I hold a knife?
Deeper

Give the Poet a shovel,
that's how the joke began,
and he will dig
deeper and deeper
until
at the bottom of his hole
he finds himself.

I told that one to Dante,
and he laughed politely
but said it would have
been funnier
if I made Buddha
do the digging,
and, anyway,
my delivery was abyssmal,
he added, and
resumed skating.

I told my joke to the Buddha
but he was busy
being
on the side of the road
and wouldn't speak.
only your absence!
not your singular presence,
made me a poet
if the spirit moves you

you are
without a doubt
the thickest
ghost
to haunt these
halls

my meaning is
perhaps
ambiguous
i meant only
to say
that you are
quite dense

there are
other worlds than
these

and yet
with infinity
and eternity
you
linger
malinger

to what end?

i am not your
claudius
and you
have more of
mine
than i of
yours

so now
if
you will not
sing
and your chains
are too heavy
to dance
depart!

seek
some other garrett
with shades to
rattle
and eaves to
drop
and leave
me

to this destiny
chosen
by the i that sees
all things

unclouded
unscaled
singular
but not
cipher

if you
will not
sing
and you
can not
dance

depart!
leaves that tremble with 
the breath of an autumn past;
sorrow does not fall 
low bow

the wolf bathes
  in the sunlight
that washes over
  a quiet hill
poppies bloom
  where they fell

voices echo
  across ages
names in answer
  to names
sung to an iron
  oak beat

a raven
  rides the wind
and alights
  upon cool grass
her work
  -- distant memory

from a past
  abandoned-forgotten
rings the song
  sung slowly
wash crash
  against stone

sleeps the wolf
  perchance she dreams
roosts, the raven
  and preens
the sea never
  stops
   singing
a bittersweet life;
dew sings from a blade of grass
dawn does not listen
Tlazolteotl!     
You cannot absolve His sins     
by eating their shit.     
yggdrasil

barren tree
and barren tree
and ash
hung with this
strange bitter fruit
gnawed by wyrm
the iron is yours
so spin
spin your tangled web
and sigh
gentle conspirator
o! broken orator!
you would have spilled
honeyed blood
but you slept through
fowl songs
and the branch
did not break
did not bend
though pierced
through and through
the poet
blind
though he sees
does not bleed for you
Clark

Hey Clark!
You can't hide from it.
Hey Clark!
No point denying it.
That fear you feel inside
There's nowhere you can fly.

We are all alone
We are
We are all alone

So lonely in this city
Towering glass and
Steel and Stone.
Seven millions lives
Seven million lies
Not a single one your own.

This is not your home
(We are)
(We are all alone)

See that face in the mirror?
The hero's chin,
His sky-blue eyes?
A beautiful face but
Nothing safe inside.
You take off your mask,
When all you wanto to do is hide.

Sometimes,
When the clouds are thick
And darkness falls,
You take a breath
And let it out.
Sometimes,
When traffic slows,
no-one's about --
You travel North
just to tune it out.

But the crushing ache
Behind the shield --
These myths you make,
But you can't unfeel.

At night beneath
The stars you know
That place you're from
You'll never go.
You can't escape
Just who you are --
Those deadly shards!
Your bitter star...

Clark! Clark!
This world you love;
You've only seen
So far above,
Looks diff'rent here
Through human eyes.
(A man never lives
Unless he dies.)

If you're not afraid
You can be brave;
But the world's too big
for one-alone to save.

(We are all alone)
(We are)
(We are all alone)

This is not your home!

bootstrap flutter

abrupt halt stop break
silent glass abyss gaze
what did you say
where did you go
invisible lightning firestorm
gently falling snow

you don't say
you don't say
you don't say

stupidity across copper
shake well before use
beautiful burden
press three and hold
left the windows open

flutter

you don't say
you don't say
you don't say

breathe
breathe
breathe
breathe
just breathe
please

relief shame step away
silent ovation encore
familiar strangers
what doesn't kill you
only gets stronger

we don't say
we don't say
we don't say

didn't say
didn't say
just another day

say
stay
just say

halt stop end
Ill Poeta

The Poet wanders here,
--blind to his pretension

A crimson sky
--that hints at dawn

The whispered music
--of the restless damned

And promised salvation
--recently gone


Circles, circles, epicircles
The reliquary broken open
Fine crystal shards and dust
Won't fill the void again


Sing your own dirge
I'll sing mine

Sin Titulo

I saw you in another's eyes
I tasted you in her tears
I held you in another's arms
And left you with her cries
O! Flat vista, unyielding green
you haunt my dreams
infinite horizons of brick and cinder
 
Roar mighty Anemoi!
locked away, your prison no less strange
your breath unyielding chills
neither particle nor wave
but something in between

A cool breeze blows through Purgatory
mere inches away
forever out of reach
neither damned nor saved
One should not envy boxes

The drummer continues now
undisturbed
with metronomic precision
the ancient rhythm echoes through his cage
the mad beat gone
almost forgotten
memory of memories,
but little more

Little boy, where have you gone?
You carried the sun and the moon
and filled the void between
Worlds spin alone
but Newton is not to blame
Entropy! Entropy!
and the cold warmth of decay

Have you seen eternity?
a koan
the all-seeing eye gazes
upon nothing
no forest only trees

the tree with no eyes
looks nowhere
sees everything
what wisdom lingers?
in bark and branch and leaf

look up on a clear night
see the light of a billion suns
some faded or burst before
you crawled out of the sea
now means something else
if

See?
                                                     
Irony Flavored You

Hey Boy, I'm gonna save your soul
Hey Boy, I'm gonna make you whole
Hey Boy, don't ya know?
When the sky falls down;
Well, hell --
    now you're on your own.


I took a walk
    looking for what I lost;
Beneath a hunter's moon
     on a carpet of moss

Been following your steps
    through a valley
        past a lake
Dark shadows heavy
    I saw a spider
        eat a snake

And I thought of you
    Cold kiss of steel
I thought of you
    Fingers down my spine
I thought of you
    Irony flavored you
you you you you

I thought of you

Hey Boy, I'm gonna save your soul
Hey Boy, I'm gonna patch that hole
Hey Boy, don't ya know?
When the rain pours down;
Better grab your coat
    -- I gotta go!

Stood on the edge
    The world slept below
You offered me a stone
    To throw myself down
But you can't give a man
    What he calls his own

Don't think me cruel
    Cause I laughed at you;
I'm not afraid of the sun
    I'm not a slave to the moon
The falling fearless sings
        "You don't need a net
    If you've got wings"

Mad Fisher-of-Men
    Here there be lions
Cruel Shepherd-of-Souls
    One taken, One known
Demon Lover --
    I know your name.
    I know
        your name...

Hey Boy, I'm gonna taste your blood
Hey Boy, I'll bury you in mud
Hey Boy, haven't you been told?
When the music stops;
And the chairs are gone
    -- even lies grow old...
    
Cold kiss of steel
Fingers down my spine
You --
Irony flavored you
I remember you
you you you you
Irony favored you

(Hey Boy - Hey Boy - Hey Boy)
(Hey Boy - Hey Boy - Hey Boy)
(Hey Boy - Hey Boy - Hell, Boy...)

Maggie

She's a mannequin,
   dressed in the finest pretension
Tall and beautiful
    from a distance at least

Hard and strong,
    her smile never fades
And when it does
    she paints it on again

She's not much
    for conversation
And she's so sharp
    where she's broken

But say what you will
    about plastic people
You flesh and bone hypocrites!
    at least she chose her clothes
Gentle chameleon

Who do you become?
When the world moves on,
and leaves you behind,
with memories
of patterns
and shapeless thoughts?

Have you tried
to emulate the void?
Do you hear
the song I sing?
The voiceless hymn?
My unlonging elegy?

Speak three words,
Four syllables whisper,
to the forest-keep,
Or lose yourself forever?

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